What a swing!

As I am sitting here in Bali Waterbomb Park awaiting for my kids to finish their rounds.. I am still wondering why people have mood swings. We wasted almost 2 hours trying to calm mood swings which affected all other moods in the hotel room. I think people with mood swings are selfish human being. Even if bad mood swings are permissible and there are rules surrounding it, have your swing before your bedtime, in your own space and not at the breakfast table pls.. They should know how contagious their mood can be and what it radiates to others... At the end of the day, I will just blame the owner of the bad mood swing for the whole wasted day .

Random thoughts

FreakBook

It's really FREAKING me out! It's like the new face, the new dawn, the new straits time and the new toilet..even the new sleeping partner !

Before bedtime, you will touch, see and caress FB and the 1st thing you do when you are awake is to on FB from iPad and start staring at it ! WTF! Don't you look at your partner when u wanna sleep or when you 1st wake up?! Where 's the "goodnight sweetheart, sweet dream, sleep tight" and " gd morning sunshine" and a nice morning peck...What's happening to the human mental, physical relationship and bond ? Has technology and virtual relationship taken control of your life ?!

Ohhhhh God, how much I hate Facebook now !

At 3.47am....

A little more dressing pls Sir ...

I'm a bit bewildered on how people can dress so nicely for someone else one day and so "unacceptable" for me and to my eyes the very next day.. What I write today is what I experienced seeing things around me the last 12 hours.

I always value and appreciate beauty. People like to see nice beautiful things in their life. A lot of effort are usually taken to groom oneself not only to make own self feel proud but also in a manner where they represent their social circle and family well. My partner shud be damn proud walking beside me as I take pride on how I represent myself in public or in private.

As blunt as I can be, I do not like to be associated or to be around people who dressed sloppily, putting on "misleading" caption t-shirts, or just simply not making an effort to dress up correctly for a venue or for a simple Saturday shopping day... And please all gentlemen out there, stop hanging all those car keychains, work badge or pass, sunglass casing/bag around ur belt or outside ur pocket on a carefree weekend with the family !!! You don't need to showcase and prove all these identification of your belongings... only "mat" will do that to tell the public what they have ! Real turnoff and eyesore to me..

Trust me.. U see me walking far far away and as fast as i could to be a far distance away from you ...

Blardy Pleasure for me!! Arrgghhh!

Make no mistake: high blood pressure is a definite health hazard. It damages arteries in the heart, kidneys, and throughout the body, leading to heart attack, heart failure, stroke, kidney failure, and other serious health problems. That’s why many doctors recommend aggressive steps for lowering high blood pressure. I was just recently diagnosed with chronic hypertension :-(


As i was reading more on blood pressure targets:
Normal blood pressure is a systolic pressure of less than 120 and a diastolic pressure of less than 80. Systolic pressure (the upper number in a blood pressure reading) refers to pressure in the arteries when the heart beats. Diastolic pressure (the lower number) measures pressure in the arteries between heart beats. Blood pressure between 120/80 and 140/90 is borderline high (prehypertension), while blood pressure above 140/90 defines high blood pressure. These are the numbers that guide when to start and change drugs to lower blood pressure.

Well the above are just good knowledge. Preventive is definitely better than cure..

Principle of Least Interest

A friend of mine is in trouble…

She is terribly in love with her boyfriend but he is less in love with her.

And this sets up a terrible dynamic in their relationship.

Because he doesn’t care as much as she does, he has tremendous power over her. He dictates most of what happens in her life… She willingly submits to this because she wants his love more than he wants hers in return.

And the more she tries to please him, the more of herself she loses to the relationship, and the less happy she becomes because she gets so little in return, so she tries harder to please him.

Of course, from his perspective, things are great. The less he gives, the more she tries to make him happy. What a deal.

The principle of least interest at work: The person who cares the least about a relationship has considerable power over the person who cares the most.

Ironic and sad. I was there.

My exact sentiment now..

Food for Thought

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

More Twisted GPS ANAL-ORGY

Handphones are coming out with a new new feature which will raise some problems for people in close relationships.

These handphones have GPS tracking technology. With this technology, friends and family members can track each other’s movements on their cell phones.

From a Wall Street Journal article on these spy cells:

The most significant is that cellphone users who sign up can make their whereabouts available only to a network of friend who also buy the service. They can view each others’ location any time, with the provision that users always can temporarily turn off location-tracking.

With this technology, there is no reason to ask a spouse “Are you still at work?” Just check your phone, it will show you where he or she is (or at least where his or her phone is).

I imagine that many spouses will not want to have their every movement tracked for a variety of reasons, including having an affair.

It should be interesting to see how these conversations play out among couples:
I let you track my movements, so why can’t I track yours?
If you don’t have anything to hide, why don’t you turn on your tracking-location feature?

Clearly, for some couples this issue will be a significant source of conflict and game-playing (getting two phones, one for location-tracking, which always forwards calls to your real location).

Twist Turn Stupid GPS!

I am still a bit perplexed, confused and puzzled over something that happened 12 hours ago.. Not sure if I should be believing the updated technology that I downloaded in my iPhone or the human words.. I was waiting for my food delivery and was given the opportunity to track the movement of the delivery up to my doorstep every 1 minute I refresh. Delivery man said he was in Bishan at 0828 as the prayers for anadhah mosque only commence at 0800 ( i doubt the prayer ended that early for him to make his way quickly to CTE) but my tracker stated he was rounding orchard road that good 10-15 mins.. I captured his location in Penang Road at 0831 when he reported his location to be at CTE .. Hmmmmm who or what do I believe!

It could look like it was a small matter to anyone that read this. My delivery was not late but his routing from Bishan to Tampines crossing over Orchard Road and Penang Road was questionable.. At one track at 0815-0820 it even captured Emerald Hill .. WTF!

I am insanely trying to forget what I encountered this morning but I can't as this involves the TRUST management between people that stays in your life for good. When I send him his Penang Road location image, he did not reply or response .. It's still a puzzle to me.

Everything I Drool, I Do it for YOU ...

I am into my 15 weeks of pregnancy and I must say that I am doing pretty well in the appetite and cravings department. I guess in general MAN still do not understand the repercussion of not fulfilling the cravings and wants of a preggy mum. The impact is a double blow as it is not feeding the hunger pang of the little one in the belly thus making it stay hungry and secondly, because of this non fulfillment, it somehow created an environment of anger and sore between the "requester of food and the provider".

Some women will like some interesting concoctions of food such as rice with brown sugar, barbecue sauce with some butter, durian with rice...urrghhh not for me.. that is to each its own. That is enough to make most people want to be sick. However in any pregnancy period, you have different folk with different stroke...I was having McDonalds fish fillet for everyday of last two weeks and now craving for seafood and mango sago dessert.....SADLY I have to get all these food myself or imagine savoring them as my other half has no interest in entertaining my cravings. Wish I could just drive on my own (which of course I could) to satisfy my hunger and not trouble anyone..coz when I do that, reluctantly and being obligated, he has to follow me..which I really think if a forced action :-(

Like today, I wanted to have the Newton kangkong belachan, or the Lagoon Barbeque fish and gong gong but all that will be tasted in my dreams tonight.. I got to admit too that extra sensitive hormones are definitely being produced during these tiring long gestation period...

Sometimes I wish MAN is given a once a lifetime learning and eye and heart opening experience to be pregnant and feel what I go through...the passion of many nights turning to a distraught 9 months period for that mum if she is not handle with extra tender loving care .....and attention and action..

Happy 47th Independence Day Chinabore!!!

It is the eve of the nation's 47th independence day and I am wearing all angelic micro mini white shift dress today , of course minus the external red... my red blood already pumping hard in anger this morning after reading someone's blog, that's enough of redness to last for the whole day... Drove my little mini me Adriana to school for her own school's celebration and reached office at 6.45am.. my colleagues thought I was mad to reach so early as there was a saying that there are flying or walking spirits of "Lucy" and "Thomas" in this old office...in short GHOST lah!

Well its Ramadhan and like an innocent kid, I believe all the bad spirit, ghost of the past, Jin and "Tonic" will be locked away for a good month....maybe I look like a walking ghost myself , all donned in white but definitely a chic happening ghost that everyone loves to encounter with.

What do I do today ? Wanted to book a room in MBS to view the annual spectacular firework but due to the fasting activity, I skipped that option. I always love National day when I was a kid but not anymore. I feel that the country socio-demographic has changed quite a bit and affect the way I feel about this nation. Rumors has it that the Ministry of Education has change some historical data in school textbook and deleted facts of Sang Nila Utama. Rumors has it that someone up there wanted to change the National Anthem to a more universal language and the fact that my kids thought that this nation is a Chinese country. No offence to my Singaporeans Chinese friends and kakis... There's just too much Chinese nationals invading this country and rooting their white porcelain ass here...and bringing along their beautiful social etiquette. Fark..! you are not welcome unless you can behave in a well mannered way we Singaporeans do and ensure cleanliness in this country. I encountered mandarin speaking language waitress in an all Muslim restaurant, that irks me big time and made me just walked out of the place feeling more hungry than before I came in because I had to further empty my stomach and organ systems by giving her a basket of my thoughts after having an ugly  unsuccessfully conversation with her. Even when my other half traveled to US, the immigration officer disclaimed that he is a Singaporean and when he was asked how a Singaporean looked like, the officer pointed out to a Chinese looking man!!! Redonkeylious!!!

Anyway, Singapore is different from China in many ways...google it yourself coz I'm not going to further write about these two associations, enough is enough...anyway snippets of the demographic stand as follow...

A song in the heart ALWAYS...

Sorry my beautiful and faithful readers, it took me 6 long dreaded months to actually find that little free time to pen my innermost thoughts and experiences here again. Many would think that I would have all the luxury in my lifetime to visit this blog..but you are so wrong. Every little time I am blessed with, there you will find me running to my little abode and even then still continue to run after my 3 wonderful kiddos.

Anyway to further expand and share where I stopped last, I just feel that I have been taken for granted by my loved ones. The pain I felt and still feeling it is as though I was push to literally sit on a chair full of long prickly cactus.... imagine how painful that would be!! Maybe it doesn't make sense to some people why my loved ones would be causing me pain...Exactly, that is when they take you for granted and feel that life blessings and gifts are provided in a silver platter and that once you are married, you don't need to provide that ongoing love, passion and comfort and that no more effort is needed to keep a sustainable meaningful and loving life.

I love life dearly but only recently I posted in FB how NOT SO UPBEAT I am feeling about life anymore. It is seriously a case of pendulum for me... lots of swings and ups and downs. Why and when are some people a pain in the ass and a song in your heart....

He will be be a beautiful melodious song in my fragile heart when he makes me utterly happy and makes me feel so much in love and wanted. Makes me feel at peace and assured that comfort is to him I go to whenever I needed one.....that only happens when you don't have the "Mrs" title... once you are the Mrs, the DJ gradually stopped playing the beautiful song that always linger in your ears.

Pain in the ass is when everything else stays static when it hits the rock bottom and no effort is taken to make change. I sometimes regret remarrying because I feel that I am not appreciated and not being loved as much as before. I refuse to accept that feeling and will try to reverse it....however it is never easy. When you are taken for granted and not received anymore passion, affection and words of encouragement, concern and love...you know where you are in their life....

I hope to recover quickly from this phase in life that I am going through...no more emotional pain please. I have decided that I will quietly hum that once beautiful song in my heart while sitting on that family of Cactaceae plant..

Why why why

Why are some people a song in your heart and others a pain in the ass?

 

Stay tune.....I will share with you why ...

Write Timing...

Gosh.. I should not be writing now. I have tonnes of proposal to follow up and a sales presentation tomorrow morning at 10am which I have not prepared at all ! WHAT THE F!!

I am actually on the roll to write and have so much to share. Just got back from our annual sales conference in  Desaru last Friday and had a jolly good time connecting with fellow colleagues. I want to write about things that I learned during the sales workshop on brains colours and personality...I wanna bitch about some people there and I wanna pour my grievances on my BGR issues...yes it's still there even though I am happily married ,just like the chipsmore cookie tag line "sekejap ada, sekejap takda" (means one moment there, one moment gone)

It is now at this bloody hour that my creative juices are flowing out but sadly time is not on my side...Will definitely make a return hopefully after my hectic work day tomorrow...

I will be back to write !!!!

Some one like me is it ?

Hmmmm.....I was found in FB and had the chance to rekindle platonic friendship with some old friends who are doing flying well in their life and career. Facebook is always a good platform to search and connect with long lost friends, relatives, enemies, flings, mentors, ex bosses, pen pals, pets...etc. My mind wonder then about my finders.....

1. Why would married man still want to pursue and ask old dates out for drinks, knowing that the "datee" is happily married?

2. Why can't the catch up session be limited to FB chat?

3. Why are these type of men not afraid of "what goes around, comes around?"

4. Why are men forever trying ?

5. Why am I now thinking if my other half would do the same?

For me, I just want my conscience clear. Lucky  I am deeply entrenched in my partnership with my other half. He should be lucky and thanking God that he has me as his faithful other half.....

Maybe these men finders want someone like me ?

Hola 2012!!

I am back ...it's been 6 months since I left this page. Before January passes us quickly, I am definitely not too late to wish Happy 2012 and a Happy & Prosperous Dragon year !! The 6 months when I disappeared were the most grueling months in my entire life....

It all began when my beloved dad fell really ill in June 2011 and slowly had his last breath on 1st Sept 2011, 2 days after we celebrated Aidilfitri...something that I could not get over till today as there are so many many things that I wish I could tell him.....my emo gets a better side of me whenever I think of dad and Al-Fateha has been my words to him eversince..

And of course, as saying goes, when a life ended, a new life begins.....Nop, I did not get pregnant but I got hitched again. Just a small closed family wedding celebration  held during the time my dad was critically ill in the hospital. I knew it was his wish to see me happy again.. Yes Dad, your only daughter is happy now and hopefully this new life will be an eternal bliss.....Congratulations to your marriage Sue...It simply means

Unfortunately for me, after my dad's departure ..my hospital trip continued..! Arrgh... what else if not for my perpetual problem of fibroid and cysts.. got myself lucky with 1 month Hospitalization Leave. and the idiotic gynae had to open back my C-section cut..That definitely did not help in my work as I was in the new acting role... bummer right !! That's enough for 2011 and I am eagerly bouncing back into 2012 with new hopes, plans and aspiration ...and not forgetting revenge and payback time for traveling time!

So Hola again for 2012...be kind to me and love me better than those that claim they do ....