Hmmm.....sounds familiar yeah ....? You must be betting your last cent that I am talking about that local apparel and jewellery shop. Why not? After all, that group of company has been contributing so much to the Malay society and community in Singapore that probably every single Malay adult would remember it some way or another. I wonder why it was named and it's still called 2nd Chance. Easy guess would be that the owner wants to give every customer in his shop a second chance to get that purchase and not walk out empty handed......then the emergence of Golden Chance just lighted the Malay aunties' faces and cast some sparkle around the neck, wrist and everywhere possible they can display.....What else if not gold? Sadly for Golden Chance, I prefer diamond...
In a deeper context of 2nd chance, I am now in dilemma....serious dilemma. I am given the 2nd chance to make it happen again which I AM REALLY GAME for..BUT to do it within a very short time line. I just don't know what to do. The decision that I am being pressured to make, will affect the rest of my life. Not only my life, my kids life too. The conversation I had this morning was just one way. It's either "July", "Nov" or "just forget about the whole thing" . Is that what the last 1 year plus is all about? TIMELINES??
It is really funny how reverse the situation is. Usually the guy will always want to hold on from saying "I do" but not with my beau. Yes, I do love him to the core. More than he knows. However I fear that hasty decision results in nasty surprises. I am not surprise I am feeling this way. Afterall, it was a damn bitter experience I had in my last one that I just need a little break and time away from any marriage now....I am still a very optimistic person and supportive of marriage institution because I make a damn good wife....ask Yana! My long lasting classmate... my only fear is that once marriage settles in, the man will just be complacent and stop having that passion for the partner... even now, sadly my sayang Chai...I don't see your passion burning ...
I want to buy time...I am not running away.... I know I am blessed with a man who cares about my well being and the kids too ..indeed that is rare and a Golden Chance to have a man take me lock stock and barrel. How do I make him and his side see that not every relationship should end up in a marriage QUICKLY.... I am not saying NO ...it's just NOT YET....It's upsetting having to rush such important thing and not let the owner of that life have an equal say.....I am just confused and disgruntled ....Insyallah, there's gonna be light at the end of the tunnel...maybe the gold from that Golden Chance can shine some for me. I love my Chai!
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